Just Once

There are always those things that you just don't want to remember, talk about, or just don't want anyone else to know about. When it's just easier to lie about what is wrong or what is bothering you. Well personally i have seem to have a lot of those things that I don't want to tell anyone. A few people have seemed to notice and ask if everything is okay. I take the easy way out and just say yes. Over the past few years I have gotten very good at this. Even the acting like everything is okay when I feel like falling in a hole and never coming out cause it might just make it go away then. After a while it seems like people give up on trying to get you to tell them what is wrong. The best thing I have found that helps to get to get people to quit asking is to each person tell something different cause then when everyone talks to try to figure it out they have no idea or just something as simple as I just don't feel good does the job too. For years I have been doing this and it has never failed for me yet and I don't think it will any time soon. There are only a few people out there that when asked whats wrong or if something is bothering me will I tell them the truth. This is because they are the ones that I can trust to not tell anyone else and not get mad and really understand what is going on and how I really feel. There are some days that I wish I would just have the courage to tell them the truth but that would make for some very long and dreaded days. Which would not be in my favor cause a lot of days are already long and dreaded.

~Maybe some day things will go in a direction in my favor~