Over the last eight months life has thrown me many different curve balls. Many of them were not any ways that I thought would happen in my life. I was raised in a way that thought me that everything happens for a reason. Good or bad. In a post about my 2013 summer adventure, I had talked about how I had got married. Many people did not agree with what I had done but it was all through my choices. As time passed and we made it through our first year and a half still being 8,000 miles apart.
In the months that followed things started to head down hill. At first it was hard for me to listen to what people were trying to tell me how things were starting to seem unhealthy. As hard as it was for me to accept but as I tried to ignore what people were saying started to become more and more obvious. That is when I knew that what I had to do would not be easy but I knew it needed to be done. It took a few weeks but I finally built up the courage to stand up to my ex-husband and say that enough was enough.
The weeks and months that followed turned out to be some of the best and worst that I have ever had. Throughout the last 19 weeks I have struggled to get him to understand that no matter how much he tries to get me to come back and help him to get to America I will not change my mind because my life has moved on for the better.
Two of the best things in the world have also happened in the last 19 weeks. I had told myself that I was not going to jump into anything as quick as I did last time. But when I said that I did not realize that the person that I had started to see would change my life in such a wonderful way. I knew that what I was feeling was what I had been looking for the whole time. I remember always being told that when you are with someone and you no longer think or compare things to those from your first true love you know that you have found someone just as good. But in my case I know that I have found someone that is even a million times better. I can say this more confident than anything else. This is because through everything he has stood by me even though he did not have to.
The number one best thing that has happened in the last 19 weeks is that I found out that in about 21 weeks I will get to be the one thing that I have always wanted to be in life and that is getting to be a mom. The best part is that the man that I have fell so deep in love with is the father to my child. We have been lucky that everything is going good with the pregnancy. On the 15th we had our monthly check up and everything was good with baby having a heartbeat of 160 beats per minute. On February 12th we have our second ultrasound and will be finding out if our little monkey is a boy or a girl. I am banking on a boy but my parents are voting against Joe and I for a girl.
~Even when life brings you down to rock bottom, someone will always find you to bring you back up higher than where you were the first time~
The weeks and months that followed turned out to be some of the best and worst that I have ever had. Throughout the last 19 weeks I have struggled to get him to understand that no matter how much he tries to get me to come back and help him to get to America I will not change my mind because my life has moved on for the better.
Two of the best things in the world have also happened in the last 19 weeks. I had told myself that I was not going to jump into anything as quick as I did last time. But when I said that I did not realize that the person that I had started to see would change my life in such a wonderful way. I knew that what I was feeling was what I had been looking for the whole time. I remember always being told that when you are with someone and you no longer think or compare things to those from your first true love you know that you have found someone just as good. But in my case I know that I have found someone that is even a million times better. I can say this more confident than anything else. This is because through everything he has stood by me even though he did not have to.
The number one best thing that has happened in the last 19 weeks is that I found out that in about 21 weeks I will get to be the one thing that I have always wanted to be in life and that is getting to be a mom. The best part is that the man that I have fell so deep in love with is the father to my child. We have been lucky that everything is going good with the pregnancy. On the 15th we had our monthly check up and everything was good with baby having a heartbeat of 160 beats per minute. On February 12th we have our second ultrasound and will be finding out if our little monkey is a boy or a girl. I am banking on a boy but my parents are voting against Joe and I for a girl.
~Even when life brings you down to rock bottom, someone will always find you to bring you back up higher than where you were the first time~
