Being One of the Guys

Up tell eighth grade I hung out with mostly guys. Eating with the guys, playing football at lunch, and even hanging out with the guys after school. My mom getting mad cause i wasn't the little girly girl that she always wanted her baby to be. I never really thought about it but I have now started to understand what the big deal really was.

My freshman year I changed schools and stopped talking to most of my guy friends. To top it all off the guys at the new school were very different. They weren't the same as the guys that I always hung with. That's when I decided that i would go with the flow and see where it takes me. I had found some good girls to hang with and all was going good. But there was still the thing that I was not used to hanging with girls and doing girly stuff. By the end of my freshman year I had started to become more girly. Then summer came and I started going to work with my dad everyday. The tomboy that I had thought that I was started to get away from started to come back.

Next thing I knew school was starting again and the weirdness of not fitting in was back. Even though I know that they accept me for who I am and they don't think anything less of me for it. There is still the part of me that want to go back to my old school and go back to the days that I felt as if I was just one of the guys and that was just the way I thought it would always be. The one thing that I learned from this whole thing is that no matter what you have to be yourself no matter what others want you to be.

"I think life is a good book. The further you get into it, the more it begins to make sense."
~Harold Kushner

A Day In Chicago

4 in the morning and I wake up, get ready, and start to fall back to sleep. By 6 in the morning we are on the road. We stop get breakfast and back on the road. It is now about 9:30 we are driving around by Chicago. We stopped by the lake played in the waves like little kids. By the end our feet were so cold and the sand was hurting our feet. Dripping wet we got back in the car and went back on our way to downtown Chicago. Once here we drove around for what seemed like for ever then we finally found what we were looking for. A parking spot! We got out and started to walk around and started to go shopping. It was so cool to see the city. By lunch time we stopped for pizza. Then off we went again so many stores to go in in what seemed to be such a little time to see them all. We found a hotel checked in and off in to the night we went walking and around every corner a new world seemed to open. Now its like 10:30 and I feel as if I have been here for what seems like a life time. This is the first and the best trip that I have ever taken to Chicago.