Time Really Does Fly

So in the last 11 or so weeks I have been dealing with a lot of things in life from college, to friends, to work. As much as I thought my second semester was going to be go a little bit smoother than my first was just a joke. There is nothing about this semester that has not been just as challenging as the first. Between trying to balance more classes while still work was a new adventure in itself. Let alone it didn't stop just there work has been crazy and not in a good way, it had got to the point that I had started to look for a new job. For a while that search was not going well but then things started to turn around, I finally started to hear back from a few places.

As time kept going,feeling like it was just flying, I continued to put in my all but along that road I had realized that the people that had been by my side just didn't seem to be there any more. It's not that I was expecting them to drop everything they were doing but the fact that I would only hear from them when I would reach out to them made me really start to think. The fact that I had made plans with some of them and then last minute if I were not to have asked them would not have known that things had changed. I just didn't understand how friends that talked all the time just stopped that the two lane road had become a one way.

I knew that with the distance of different colleges and paths in life we would grow apart but I didn't think it was going to be like this at all. I thought it was going to be something that even know we got further in life the distance would make us closer. But the truth is it has only brought us farther apart. To see this happen and to see them not see it at all is what hurts the most. The fact that talking to the person, that a year ago we didn't miss a day without talking, can now go almost 11 weeks is just crazy.

There is nothing that cuts deeper than knowing the truth and seeing life move on like nothing had even happened. So when ever you think things are starting to fall into place just know at any given time they can just fall apart just as fast without you even knowing.

~When you start to see the world from the outside looking in, is when you rely start to understand what road you are on~