Up tell eighth grade I hung out with mostly guys. Eating with the guys, playing football at lunch, and even hanging out with the guys after school. My mom getting mad cause i wasn't the little girly girl that she always wanted her baby to be. I never really thought about it but I have now started to understand what the big deal really was.
My freshman year I changed schools and stopped talking to most of my guy friends. To top it all off the guys at the new school were very different. They weren't the same as the guys that I always hung with. That's when I decided that i would go with the flow and see where it takes me. I had found some good girls to hang with and all was going good. But there was still the thing that I was not used to hanging with girls and doing girly stuff. By the end of my freshman year I had started to become more girly. Then summer came and I started going to work with my dad everyday. The tomboy that I had thought that I was started to get away from started to come back.
Next thing I knew school was starting again and the weirdness of not fitting in was back. Even though I know that they accept me for who I am and they don't think anything less of me for it. There is still the part of me that want to go back to my old school and go back to the days that I felt as if I was just one of the guys and that was just the way I thought it would always be. The one thing that I learned from this whole thing is that no matter what you have to be yourself no matter what others want you to be.
"I think life is a good book. The further you get into it, the more it begins to make sense."
~Harold Kushner
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