This Time It Will Be Different

Keep an open mind. Just breath. Don't over think. Remember its not the end of the world. This is God's plan, its all in his hands. This is just God's way of put you back where you belong.

These are the things that I keep telling myself. It's not that I don't know these things, its just that when you think you know where your life is going all it takes is one little thing to change all the plans you thought were perfect to change.

This is what I have learned not for the first time but once again. It is not that my life is over or that I the opportunity won't come around again, just that right now was not the right time for it to happen. For me it just so happens that it is happening with my college plans. I know that there are other options that are just as good, but I got to the point where I thought I could not fail. Where everything was in my hands.

I am starting to see not getting into my number one college choice as God's way of reminding me that things are not in my hands they are in his. That what I thought was where my life was going is not where he wanted it to go, or at least not yet.

So just remember, everything is in his hands anew if you should forget that he will always find a way to remind you, letting it be a way that makes you happy or maybe even extremely upset.

He is good. He is great. He is the one in control.

Month One - Post High School

Since September my life seemed to just be passing just like any other high schoolers that was until January. Everyday seemed to be the exact same.

A Typical Day

• 6:30 A.M. - Wake up for school
• 7:55 A.M. - School starts
• 2:10 P.M. - Done with school
• 2:30 P.M. - Start homework
• 5:00 P.M. - Go to work
• 9:00 P.M. - Get home from work
• 11:00 P.M. - Go to bed

I had the normal thought anyone would have. Is my life ever going to change. I could not wait to be don with school, knowing that I was going to be done early. Well when the day came that I was no longer in high school it was just like everyone hopes it feels like. I had an overwelling feeling of joy and excitement. The first few days were some of the best, I didn't have to get up for school, I didn't have to go to work. I had no work because my place of employment closed about a week before I was done with school.

Now don't get me wrong I was happy to not have anything going on but at the same time after a few days I had no idea of what to do with myself. I no longer wanted to be sitting at home all the time so I let the search for a new job begin. It has been just over a month now that I have graduated and I have found a job and should be starting soon. As far a college goes that is for another day, but as I figure out the how the life of a high school graduate I will try to keep up to date.

Lessons Learned

There is not a day that passes that I do not listen to at least one song. There is that one song that always just seems to speak to you and every word seems it was written just for your life. I have been thinking about this the last few days, there have been a few songs that I feel fit this for me but there has always been one that has stood out to me.

Lessons Learned By: Carrie Underwood.

I believe that this song explains everything from the last days of eighth grade, to freshman year through junior year, to senior year, and even through graduation. From first loves to broken hearts, goals and dreams to how to reach those goals and dreams. Not only does it seem to say everything I wish I could say but everything that I didn't know how to take in and explain.

Who knew that within only about four minutes everything from the last few years would seem to just be put into the words that you wish you could just say but don't know how, is already out there just waiting for you to discover it.

When Everything Changes

The last four years have been what some would say as a life changing time, between figuring out who I am as a person, where I want to go in my life, and how I was going to accomplish my goals. Within the last four years the things that I thought would never change did, all changed for the best but at the time if you would have asked me I would have said the complete opposite.

One of the biggest and most influential changes that happened was the very first day of what was then the next four years of my life. I walked in not knowing a soul, nor wanting to be there. As time passed I started to accept this was one change I could not keep from happening. As time just seemed to just fly by with no control of how fast or slow, memories where made and some are the best that I have. Some I wish I could change but I know that the lessons that I learned where ones that I needed to learn. From new friends, to a new school, to new teams, to trying everything that I could be part of.

Through all of these new chances, at the time, I learned that for the things that I can not change, there is always a different way to approach any situation. Looking back at the last four years I have learned that regretting things is just a waste of time, and of a good lesson that can be learned. Don't get me wrong there was a point where I did regret things that had or were happening. But looking back now I don't regret them, I see them as the lessons that God wanted me to learn and knew I need at the time and that was the one way he knew that I could not miss them.

So from all this yes, there was a point that I hated high school, when I just couldn't wait to be done, to just be given the chance to get out of this place. Yes there are still days that I feel this way but I know they will pass and where ever I end up is right were God wants me to be.

Long Time Gone

Over the last year a lot of things have for me have changed. My school, my friends, my job, my ambitions, the plan on how to reach my goals and dreams. With in the last year I have accomplished many things that I knew I would sooner or later accomplish, but many where a lot sooner than I expected.

1. Apply for semester graduation
2. Complete summer class
3. Change schools
4. Make new friends
5. Take school seriously
6. Pass all classes
7. Graduate early

From these seven things I am able to cross off each one knowing that I put my full effort into completing them with everything that I had. To some these things may not seem like much but to me they were everything.

Looking back I would have never thought I would be where I am today. I have learned who I truly am, who my true friends are, what my future holds, and what is to come next for me. I have found that those who I thought were the most important to me, where, but some I found that what I thought we had meant nothing. I also learned who I truly was and what was truly important to me and what I wanted to be known for standing for. Although many things from the past year I wish I could change, but I know that they happened the way they did for a reason. Some of those reasons I have learned to accept and others I accept but still wish I could change but I know if they changed everything else would most likely change too.

Although I have learned and changed a lot I know it has been for the best and helped me learn what I am meant to do with my life and where my life will be taking me in the next few years.