The Choice Is Made

So a lot of things seemed to happen this year that don't really have a reason but make every thing just in to a mess. At NEW Lutheran the cost of going there next year has been raised and my family can't affored it. I know what school I would be going to for my junior and senior year and its back with the friends that I let after the 8th grade. When I left no one knew the reason of my leaving except for my best friend whom promised me she wouldn't tell anyone. Like a true friend she did and as the sophmore year started I told her that if someone asked she could tell them. I was tired of hiding. Since everyone knows the reason I left I'm not scared or worried to go back. The thing that makes me the most upset about it all is that next year I will not be able to play any sports for me junior year. This really brings me down because I have growen to have a love for the game of softball. My coach who is the most understanding through all of this is part of the reason for this new found love of mine. I talked to her one on one to tell her about next year and as I stood there cry feeling bad about letting the team down what would be my junior year there she told me not to worry about it and to worry about this season cause that alone is far enough away. This seem to make some of my worries melt away but not all of them. As far as most people know the only reason I am leaving is the cost but that is not the only reason there are many more but most people don't seem to even wonder what is going on. As I see it the people I call my friend if they r true friends they will care in the long run

~a true friend will be there to the end~

What a Week

The next day off of school is in March sometime and I can't wait. As some people may know I'm not really a people's person. Many people, okay almost everyone, at my school and at work are driving me crazy. Every one is easily annoyed from each other and then seem to take it out on others too. I hope this week is starting to get better, much better than last week. Even School has noticed the change in peoples attitudes. They have sent out a few emails to parents telling them to check their students phone's, facebook, and any other electronics. When even a school that doesn't seem to do much to help solve problems but they are this time. So either many people have complained about it or the teachers are starting to notice there might be something really wrong. I really wish that everyone would just be able to get along with everyone else with out problems. I know this wish will never come true but i will always wish that.

If you don't ever have a dream (wish) there is no point to life anymore!

~Lois Pierce~

Every Time

Why is it that every time the things that seem to be going wrong seem to start to get better, more stuff seems to go wrong. My aunt is getting better but now my boyfriend is going through a rough time and I am trying my hardest to be there for him but every time that I get some thing figured out with him someone or something else seems to bring him down again. Every time this happens it seems as if its harder and harder to cheer up. I know that I have to be strong for him and be there for him but I feel as if every time we go through this it gets harder and harder for me too. These are the times that I wish that I was still a little kid when my biggest problem was that someone pushed me on the playground. No matter what happens I will always be there for him and love him through the toughest thing that will happen.


I love you Christopher!<3

Sending the Prayers Up

In the last two days everything that can seem to go wrong did and the things you didn't think would go wrong still did. Sunday afternoon is when it all started to go down hill. I was in Appleton with Chris and his mom and as we got in the car to leave Starbucks to head back to their house. When my phone started to ring. It was my mom. My first thought was that she was going to remind me to be home by three since I spent the night over there. But that wasn't it at all. She was calling me to let me know that my aunt was being rushed to the hospital. She was showing the signs that she just had a stroke and the doctors said that she did have a stroke, but also that her kidneys were shutting down. This scared me cause no one ever wants to lose a family member, but she was more than an aunt to me. I grew up at her house during the summer. We were told that if she made it though the night she would most likely get better soon. But as of this morning that doesn't seem to be God's plan. My aunt seems to be getting worse. I guess what ever God plans for her will be the plan that will be followed. Please as you read this keep my aunt in your prayers, for Gods plan to keep her safe and away from pain.

Leslie Pierce You Are In Our Prayers!

Long Time

The friends that you can hang out with and don't even have to say anything. They give you that "remember when" look and the both of you burst out laughing and can't stop. Well me and my best friend have this kind of relationship. I love it and wouldn't trade it for a million dollars. Or anything for that matter. We text each other all the time and try to set up times to hang out, but there never seems to be anytime that works for both of us. Between school, work, family, and school activities, there hasn't been a day that works for both of us. We have been trying to find a time to hang out for about a month and a half and it never seems to work. As far as we can tell the soonest that we will be able to spend some bff time will be in March and that means another two months. Its crazy. I love this crazy beautiful life but I wish two of these crazy beautiful lives would fit together better.